Twelve + One: .......


Saturday, October 01, 2005

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ok..to everyone who thinks im facing probs or depression or whatsoever....im fine.....thanks for ur concern anyway........ok..im bored now....currently ...once again thinking about life.....haha..yes....the depressing topic.....whats my dream? whats my passion?.....i dont know.......kinda sad la.....i dont want to think back when im....50......and regret the shit out of me.....blaming my self for not doing the things i wanted to...and when im too old to do it....all i can do is regret and blame my self..now thats sad......well..that motivational talk is kinda like a reminder la.....JUST DO IT.........do what?? i dont even know what i wanna do....what i like..and all those questions.....haizzz.......im turning 18 soon.......havent done shit in my life.....if i die now.....i have absoulutely nothing achieved....nothing spectacular ........remember that lil phrase "enjoy today...yesterday is gone...tomorrow might never come"...damn true......but how to friggin enjoy today if all i can do is STUDY STONE ONLINE SLEEP........and seriously..sometimes online can be wasting ur life.....so...what i wanna do......at least something b4 i start working......working = no life........unless im working a job that is superbly chun and not boring.....who cares about the pay if im enjoying every bit of my job......have u ever asked ur self this question.."what have i achived in my high skool days"..........sad right?....NOTHING........i was watching this show..."water boys"...a show alot of u will find pathetic...haha.....so theres this bunch of students....doing the things they like.....may it be swimming....athletics....or music.....with their heart and soul.....into their passion..because its their last year of high school...and i was thinkin....i got 2 months left..and ....i got nothing to put my heart and soul into........haha.......sadening.....maybe NS wud be somthin memorable....haha....im kinda looking forward to it....at least i get to break away from the mundane and depressing life.......oh yea...i get to handle M-16......now thats somthing interesting not many people can experience.....too bad.....those who didnt get chosen....haha....anyways...forgive me if u think this post is ...pathetic...dumb...worthless...watsoever.......1st time blogging...i dont even noe what im suppose to put in a blog la.......whats a blog anyway?......haha.......sigh sigh sigh

-kok shen -